Happy New Year everyone! Another year has gone by, and that means another 365 days (362 in this case for today) to take on with new (or not so new) goals and responsibilities. I do have to be honest with you guys though, I’m usually more depressed during this time of the year as I get older. It’s not quite the same compared to when I was younger because it’s after when the holiday hype dies down, and I’m left with reflecting on the past year. And as I reflect on the past, I start to question myself a lot, asking myself if this all worth it. I fall into seasonal depression so to speak. The Canadian winter does not help with my moods and motivation to do anything. Although I did read somewhere that being an adult means taking responsibility for yourself and knowing yourself; which I recognize I lack right now (knowing myself), so I am going to make it my mission this year to work on “adult-ing”.
2018 has brought a mixture of good times and bad, but I believe that as cliché as this sounds, we can all make the new year as a way of “cleansing” ourselves from our past mistakes and learn to do better. I was not able to accomplish certain goals I had set in mind for 2018, but I’m not letting that get in the way of achieving those goals this year. I’m very thankful for what 2018 has brought me because despite some mishaps along the way, I was able to use those undesirable situations and make the most of it. I was able to go on my first solo international trip to a few countries in Europe when my new job did not end up working out, and I learned how to navigate on unfamiliar ground. And after I came back home, despite being unemployed, I was able to keep myself busy with photography gigs. Even though I’m not in a desirable situation at the moment, I’m going to allow myself to try to make the most of it. I have beaten myself over and over, but I realize that it won’t get any better unless I actually do something to make a difference in my current position.
It can be easy to feel stuck on past mistakes and current dilemmas, but I encourage you all to recognize that it won’t get you anywhere if you just stay in the past. Let this new year allow you to accomplish what you have set in mind, whether that be graduating from school or taking better care of your health.
All the best,
Small Dose of Serotonin